
i love all of you –
the whole goddamn mess
the whole circus of drunk demons
crawling in your head
the ravenous storm
splintering your life into tinder
the skulking hyena
with its gore-speared grin
the cunning puppet master
with restless, twitching fingers
the giddy anarchist
that wants to play with matches
these are shadows
cast by greater things
I will be crucified by your passions
the agony ahead already bitter on my tongue
i can taste it
i can taste it
the God of the Gallows
gave his eye to see all –
I give my heart
that I might feel the desolate rapture.

Charlie Mackesy
“Crucifixion”
2016, Charcoal on paper
This captures the fleeting nature of the body. It is mirrored in the background, like an after-image, as though dissolving into the air.
With the back arched and the head thrown back , the figure appears to be rising.
This drawing feels like a complex victory. The cross holds purpose, and reveals a fascinating inner dynamic.
There may be a day when I don't
have to beg for money.
Today is not that day.
Muses
Sacha Van Der Werf

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